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2007-07-30T21:32:00.000-07:00

HEY THERE!..

..okie i m back in blogging..but this gonna be my last post and i will no longer blog.

i wanna be simple.
i wanna my life to be simple
soo...
best is only my girls.
schlmate
and someone
know whats i m going through each day..
i don wan others to know and interfer my life

for who is she..
pls..i know u tell him alot of things.
yes..condemn me for all u wan..
blame me..
for writing a blog.
for letting u interfer my life.
for letting u affect my mood
if u think that i m once wit a bad guy which makes u sees me as a bad girl
go ahead
its okie..
i m used to be affected by u..
bt from todae onwards
my world my time
will revolved wit my girls.. classmate..and *someone..
bt till todae i donnoe wad i do wrong to deserve u condemning me
cox i m wit a bad guy?
so i m a bad girl?
is it fair?
i know u don like me hanging arund wit e riders..
i know u don like me to be in good terms wit them
okie..
i shall not..
i shall stay real far away..

okie enough of swearing ppl
..

i'm in a real confuse state right now..
i'm feeling real terrible.
i am no longer wit him
cox i don love myself.
i hate myself.
how have i e right to love someone.
though sometime i really feel i love him
bt once again.
i feel i don't have e right.

i dreamt i hugged him damn tight.
i'm confuse wit my mind and heart.
one always sae listen to your heart.
is it true?
bt things always don turn out good when i listen to my heart
im afraid..terrified..
for once i shall listen to my brain
i gonna be friends wit him for e time being
though its difficult.. i will try
though i wanna hug him
i won..
i shall stay a distance as a friend..

i'm sorrie for those ppl around me.
my girls,classmate..sorry
i will be fine.
bt for the time being.pls forgive me for being quiet
and at times i won be laughing like i do
bt i will try to laugh.to give u a smile though i m sad
k?
love!

oh god.i feeling very sad..i feel like crying!.
no!!

i gonna do a damn stupid thing!
i gonna write a letter to my grandma.
and burn it to her.
i m really devastated...i m desperate...
no one can help me.
so i shall see if she can?

stupid!.foolish!.
bt i still wanna try!.

okie.this is my last post..i shall post my past and current pic..
and the things dat made my day!
which is my girls!.
we are from strangers to hi-bye friends..to close friends to best friend..den to best friend forever...nw les?
hahaha!.
hmm..bt i really do love them
it sound mushy..
bt i really do mean it..
i love them for giving me e strength..motivation.
thanks!..
i appreciate u girls
i do.
=)
cheers!.
i'm thankful cox u all know me e best!.
don forget our drinking session up alritE!

can't wait for dat dae!!

2007-07-30T09:52:00.000-07:00

okie i got pissed when uploading pics..
i shall do it another day..alrite..
dat pics will be my last post...
bye..for e time being

2007-06-24T17:33:00.000-07:00

hey hey

oh god..

its reali been a long time
i start blogging and
getting myslef sitting infront of e comp

hmm..update a few stuff..
on fri nite i went drinking wit my classmate..
some went hme early..
onli fish and meifen was intending to spent our nite at clark quay
when the clock gonna hit 11..meifen went hme first
onli left wit me and fish..
we were like roaming abt to find pubs wit nice music.best wit dance floor
haha..
den later my guy tag along..
we went to one nite stand..
its better den cheekys can!!
my lovely girls..next time i rather go der eh
its not like filled wit indians songs onli and stuff

haha..suddenly i tot of e guy at e dance floor..
oh my god!!!..if u see this guy
pls rate him 5 stars!!
hahahaha!
damn funnie guy..
his dance step is like onli using his hand can
and the worst thing is like he praying to something

oh my god!!!!!
hahahahahha!

funnie funnie!

mani things have happen
mani unexpected things have happen too

the girl on my tag board..
pls don go round distract ppl life
..if u really wanna do something for evan
and reali care for her and wants her to be happy
stay far away...
bt if u reali insist on wad u sae is e truth...
den u shuld jus sae hu u r
..and not hiding your identity
..cox it will onli make u like someone
who is spoiling others relationship nw!..
get it and understand girl?

im blessed to have my girls who is always der..
my guy who always tried his best to make my dae.
my classmate who goes crazy wit me when i m tired
haha.
see how blessed can i be..:)

this are ppl who i really thank god dat i met dem

sometime i met those who reali create disaster to my life..
bt thanks man..
those guys..
because u create disaster in my life.
e more i feel disgusted by u guys
and would reali reali stay far far away from u all
..and it makes me happier
to stay a distance from this kind of trash..

my guy..his someone who is sweet and cute at times..
he did things to make my day a happier dae
though sometime i m reali down and sad
he does make my day!!
he buys me bread when i m hungry..
he brings me hme when its late..
he tried to make me smile by making me angry..haha
he listens to my sorrows.
he buy me sweets when he knows i feel uncomfortable in qutting
he give stupid and e most lousiest excuse to do things for me
which reali makes my day.:)
he did e heart shape and bel by using coins
he brings me to watch stars which is dat beautiful
he is someone dat i misses ..
he is someone who i begining to trust or had already placed my trust on
bt pls don break tis trust.
i happy to know this guy :)
thanks for trying to make my day!!

okie i have tons and tons left undone..i shuld start doing..
before its all too late
okie okie
i shall update another time..when i m free again?!..
hahaha..

i missed my girls!!
love dem!!!
i want a meet up!!!:):)

2007-06-05T02:47:00.000-07:00

Elow!

its been quite long i nv been blogging..
im tempted to blog again..

hmm..

where shuld i start frm?

okie dat dey i recieve a msg frm yew ting(evan)
telling me dat nick still like me and stuff

i tink through wad she sae to me
i finally gt e ans to all my questions
hais..
i don like him animore
and its true
its just memories
and its true
i don hate this guy animore..
cox i having neutral feelings for him
yeap

so i make my stand clear now..i don like him animore..
so wadever it is..he will not affect my mood and i won't be back wit him

yeap

now i have another thing in mind..
yew ting(evan) dat time lied to keeble dat i have someone in mind
shit..
things seem to turn out this wae
i m like having someone in mind..

shit..
it shuld not turn out this way
i shuld not be having someone in mind..
i m crazy..
im afraid of getting hurt
and y i still having someone in my mind!..
i m full of craps.

shit shit shit..

hais
i m so confuse now..
reali confuse.
shuld i stop myself..
from falling for it again
maybe it will turn out e same again
or maybe..
hiya..

bleh!
i m crazy!!!..
shall keep e rest of my feelings to myself..den...
chill

i m like mugging nowadays..
bt things doesn't get into my brains..

wadever...
schls!.
wadever!
so boring!!

i wan back my happening lifes.!!
haha!..

jian hui u r best!:)
do well for tml test!!..its nv late!!..so faster go master those chapters now !!!
and stop singing..go concentrate!!...!.. u still owe me siew mai..:)

smile!:)

my dearest lovely cia...darling evan....and baby wulan..my important person ms...do well for your exams...alrite!!..meet up soon!!..love u girls!!!:)...my lg!!...lets meet up again..for zhi cha!..or steamboat!!!!..love u !!..muackz!!!

2007-05-19T10:29:00.000-07:00

its been days i last blog

i was out enjoying life..
i have to la..
cox my schl is starting real soon!

oh goD!!

hmm..
nw alot thoughts went through my mind actually
i cannot stop thinking..

yst went out wit wx sj and sj friend..
go watch movie and play funfair..
hmm..its getting more and more no kick.
i wanted to used dat as my sound proof wall..
haha..i feel like shouting out loud!
bt no kick
how to shout
haha.
den we catch e movie NEXT
its nice..credits goes to sj (lg)

hmm..den later sj had to go hme
cox she having work e next day
so i went out wit wx..
i don feel like going hme..cox if im at hme..
i will be thinking things which i shuld not think
so went places
and later dey wanted to go hme..and i m still not in e mood to go hme..
den i went to meet riders.
half wae

calls from evan(yt)
keeble wants to meet her..
i m worried for safety so i tag along
den me wx..evan was on e cab to his house.
cox he was drunk
and wanted evan to be by his side

wtf..i saw nick der..
i was like shock to e max
and was feeling damn sad.
i donnoe y

i m seriously telling him..don tell me u love and misses and stuff
when u don mean it..
cox it will be hard on me..
can he don do this to me..
if u want find other girls..
i m more den glad to hear dat.
and not lying to me..dat u nid me..
or wadever when its all a lie
yes it easy for u to sae dat
bt hard for me to listen it !

hmm..not reali in a mood now..

evan(yt)..wadever it is..come to me if u nie help alrite..love love!

wx-thanks!.:)

2007-05-16T10:39:00.000-07:00

updating..
in process

i went to nan yang poly to find my girls..
i was worried..
i hope she will be fine soon..
den headed to chinatown..
and later to woodlands to play e uk funfair..
oh god!..its fun la!*
u can reali forget wads your name up der!*
haha!*
i love my girls!*..
i do..
cia-recover soon*..:)
evan-u recover soon too!*..:)
..i will be der..when u nid someone..

* love love

i feeling so emo now..

y y y ?

i remember me and him said before we exchange our hearts..
and if i m without him or his heart i will die..
am i dying?..

smetime i feel like i m dying
i know ppl out der keep telling me..
hiya don bt sad or emo for this guy
his just someone not worth doing so

i know..i know.
bt maybe i m stupid dump or being a retard..
missing this guy..
feeling sad by this guy
i sae i shuld not be affected by him
i m trying hard
i view his friendster and
saw his main pic caption as
"TRUST ME >>i will never come back to u.."
hmm..
y does it hurts when i see this..
i m reali sad in knowing his true colours after tat break up
wit him i reali din know..
dat he lie to me dat much..

hmm..

he is just someone who hurt me dat much..
and i shuld had forget abt him long ago..
he even come into ppl relationship
his someone who i disrespect..
i mean if i hear from ppl this guy i wil like wad e fuck!*..

bt now i culd not do so..
i donnoe y i don hate him animore..
what i shuld do!*

m i crazy?*

hello*

pls..

save me*

he hurt me..
he hurt my friend
he lied.
we are not suitable
his being childish

forget him!

if i have e courage to
love him from e start where i already
know he used to be a player of 6 girls..
i shuld have dat courage to let him go.!!**..

yea i keep telling myself..
this is not e first time i m hurt in a relationship
chill and i will be fine
but it seem hard too

wadever!*.

soon this guy will be forgotten..

2007-05-14T10:26:00.000-07:00

lots of things happen..
yst around 12 plus..i went out..to have a car ride..
wit weixiang..haha..
cox i got nothing better to do..

todae hang out wit justin...soo long nv see dat study friend of mine
haha..
watch movie
200 pounds..somthing
cox we had no idea wad to watch
so watch dat..
bt it turns out quite nice..
and touching actually
awww!..

okie..i m here to vent my fucking anger again!!!
damn angry can!!

on the 11 may
he sms me this
: hey baby how you doing? sorry i can't come out anymore lol.i don't have much cash with me and my bank card is with my mother.lol.

i reply him
:u sms wrong ppl

he replied
:oops.sorrie.lol (i knew he sms other ppl..pls la who cares abt u!!)

den i nv reply..
den he reply me
:lol.i don't wan act liao la? tht was just a fake msg to see how u felt abt me now yeah

den i reply
:wadever!..don lie..aniwae it does not bothers me..so wadever

den he reply
:okie lor.means u can get over me liao rite?haiya.i m just in bad luck la?yeah.sorry for disturbing u again..really sorrie (wad!..trying to act innocent again..come on la..!..fuck u bastard!)

den i reply him
:yea i can!..and good luck to all your nonsense..bye forever

wad e fuck!..stop acting like u wanna test me..just admitt if u sent wrong ppl la..
wadever!..u tink u can affect my mood!..no wae..u are just a stranger..i don even know who e fuck u r..why u would affect my mood..come on la!

den todae evan(yewting) ring me..and tell me abt keeble told her dat nick tell her dat i tell nick dat yew ting like someone from her poly
wad e fuck!..
u damn asshole..u trying to break their relationship
come on la..u tink u r clever..
tell u bastard..we are more clever..we knew u would do dat..and we are prepared for it k!..
so u r e fool now!!..
u like to fool ppl rite!!..now look into e mirror and laugh at yourself..
cox u are e no. 1 fool now!!.
fuck u ..congrats u realli pissed me off this time
i don care if u hurt me in e past..bt u try to hurt me friend..
u shuld know..dey are more impt den myself..
so fuck u!!
u r reali a totally low class bastard and a kid!..with your fucking childish mindset u god!..mother fucker!

den i called him and SCOLDED him..and he still fucking deny
wah he reali tink dat we are a kid or wad..
pls la...we know truth..
den he scolded me in e phone saeing..stop all your bullshit!..wad e fuck!!..who e hell are u to sae dat!!..

den i sms him..cox i don wan waste my phone bill in calling him..
so i sms him
:u fucking asshole!..u can lie to e whole world u don ever try to lie to me..i m not a three year old kid like u!..your friends sae u sae u still wanna deny...wad e fuck..u try to break dem up rite!..it gonna be a no way!..damn u..u are e one who make ppl hate u even fucking more!..don go disturb ppl..u are still a kid take care of yourself first.

den he reply
:i know myself okay?just fuck off okay?i know i never tell him anything
(wah okay still question mark!..dumb la..u yourself suspect yourself too!..haha!)

den i reply him
:ya..u knw yourself ..my ass...i feel sad for u..u are always in your lying world..and can nv get out of it...cox u will use another lie to cover up your old lies...so u trying to sae your friends lied?...sure i will fuck off from your world after u fucking fuck off from their world

den he replied:
trust me this time that i nv tell him okay? but when u like accuse me that when i din den its painful k.(wad e hell!..don try to use this trick..i m not into it!)

den i replied him
:yea rite..painful..u go spoil others relationship not painful...u think this world will stop for u...pls la..stop all your fucking lies now!..

den he replied
:cox wad u are thinking is not true k?.if u don believe me then u shuld just stop toking to me..

den i replied
:im not talking!...i fucking scolding u!..u stop all your bullshit rite now..don worri i will not hate u ...cox u are just a fucking stranger!

den he replied
:keeble told me dat he was just playing wit her la..lol.can u pls don anihow tink..i don disturb others relationship k? (pls la..still have e cheeck to lol!..bloody fucker!)

den i replied
:fuck la..i know all e truth..u no nid say so much..fuck off!

den he replied
:wads wrong wit u.don believe go ask him yourself k? (always dare to act so confident..pls la..e whole fucking world knows u r lying..isn't it better for ya to stop denying!...)

den i replied
:i ask him already la ass...of cox i ask him den scold u rite..don find ani fucking trouble for ani of them...just stay in your fucking own world wit your studies!

den he replied
:yeah.and u fuck out of my life k?.i don nid someone like u ..(this sentence went through my heart...it hurts damn lot..bt i won let u affect me animore..cox i don wan a bastard to affect my mood!..)

den i replied
:fuck u la!..who nie u!..i don nie a liar in my life too!..i m fucking talking abt dem and not abt us...u are not e onli guy left...u can just fuck off! (i was damn hurt by his word..and wadever!..aniwae..he gonna be fucking off my world!...)

dats all

can u believe his friendster shoutout is i m not a bad guy bt in a bad luck!!
hahahaha!...ya rite!!..pls la..u go ask around..your friends..my friends...who likes u!!..
i once blinded..nv gonna be!!..
so u r out!!!

fucking ass!..

2007-05-09T08:56:00.000-07:00

okie..
its time for me to start blogging
vent my angers here
and my unhappiness!

hmm..many things had happen for e past few weeks after i stop blogging
actually
i stop blogging
cox i don't even have e chance to
work.
find him
where got chance?

bt nw..onli work..and of cox meet up wit my girls

i broke up wit him and its over.
over!!..u get it!

hm..actually i wanted to break up cox i find dat
we are totally not suitable

bt he did something dat made me hate him
he know it best!.

okie nw..i donnoe y talking abt him my tears are like rolling down
i won wan to cry for a person who takes revenge
this relationship means nthing

u are just being too unpredictable
telling me u love me..
and yet writing another thing as your shout out
saying dat get outta of my true love world
wadever!

shut up!

u don even know wads love k!
damn asshole!

thanks for my girls and guys frene out der..
u all made my day
thanks for those concern
i appreciate....i mean it..alot!!
u all rox!
love love!

i promise u all not to shed a tears..
bt i did..and i won animore..
give me some time..i will get over it
and reali over it
cox i know he doesn worth it

trying to get attention from girls..
pls la
wadever!
u can go tell dem wadever u wan

u can now change ur girls like changing clothes..
go ahead..no one stopping u
and stop acting like u care..
when u already don k!

and fcuking stop denying all e facts!
u damn gd liar!.
i m serious..damn gd!

now i have to let e time to heal my wounds.
once again..i will stand up strong on my own.
cox i fall on my own

alicia ask me this question..will i like cry or miss him whn i m alone
e ans i told her is no!
cox even i m alone his no where.
so..
whats der more to miss a person..who is not der all e while

okie..
end of updating my feelings

work work work!
oh god!..
i m dead tired !

i nid to catch some breathe before entering schl!
i wanna relac!
chill..
lepak!
everthing..
shopping
!!!

bt i could not leave dat shop
cox boss don allow me to
cox she is in need for man power
dats e reason y can't leave

i m home alone todae..
as my parents went to genting
hmm..bt i feel weird actually
ahahsx..
alrite..update till here cox kinda tired already..
hands are aching too

2007-04-02T12:34:00.000-07:00

candid camera

don act SHY la!hahasx

distorted face!

hey hey..

im back from malaysia

actually im back on sundae

bt din get e chance to blog..

so updating nw:)

hahasx

hmmx..pic pic pic!

actually toking abt e trip

i m kinda angry abt it.

cox my mother gave me excuses for nt going to kelong

saeing dat she is afraid of tusnami(is dat e correct spelling?!)

and afraid dat she will meet terriost

is dat e real reason??

i doubt so kay!

all she wan is to gamble gamble gamble!!

i m reali unhappy abt it..

bt i din reali express it out..

i went for dat trip cox i tot it was a great time for my family to gather and enjoy

bt..

i hate genting

i hate e fact dat they love gambling

i hate seeing dem wasting this kind of money when dey don reali have it

toking abt money

i reali feel devastated in getting into a private

i mean like 18 marks

come on man!!

its nt a mark to go into a private

bt wad can i do?!

its expensive!

i feel like helping to fork out these sum of money

bt how to?

when i haf to forcus on my studies

if this road gonna be hard..i promise to hang on

even how much i don like this course

if one dae i reali found out tis is not i wan

if my views for this course have change

if my attitude towards this have change

i promise to hang on

cox i reali don wan my mother to worrie for me

i know this is my life dey have to rites to choose for me

i reali don bare to see my mother worried

she is no longer dat young to have e strength to scold me & worried for me

hmmsx.

during e trip..my brother got a jacket..

actually i saw a t-shirt i like!!.its long sleves and those beach wear kind

i love it..

its jux off 20 by a bit..

its not dat ex can!

bt my mum jux don wan

she sae this and dat

and i can see her unwillingness!

okie fine

i pretend to like change my view and not wanting e shirt animore

den i was like okie wit it actually

bt when my bro wanted e jacket

my mother like immdiately sae okie or smthing

is this bias?

i m not sure

i don wan to know

cox this will make me feel sad

to her i like e one spending money more

bt hello!!

how long i nv went for shopping!!

i love clothes

i love design

thats my hobby

bt i cannot pursuit it

cox i don wan to like spent their money

cox i know hw hard she had to earn dat much money

sometime i even din ask for anithing

bt my bro kept asking for money when he already had splendid of money

hmmsx.

jealous envy...wadever!

sae dat you will help me get a new phone?

when?

next year?!

haisx!

i reali din ask for more

its been years i using this phone

i din complain

i din nagged!

hmmx..i m feeling so emotional nw..

perhaps..

i shuld like continue acting blur?

hmmsx.

happy stuff!
acutally i did tried to forget those envy jealousy stuff
and enjoy
actually genting is boring bt den i feel e present of family gathering

laughters!

love it(minus those angry irritating part!)

we played pool..shooting..eat and eat

i was shock i shoot dat gd..

maybe i m potential shooter..watch out !!

hahasx..

this is my first time taking couch!.cool!.kinda fun..

during e trip..on e bus..tons of tots kept coming into my mind

miss him was one of it! i miss him reali lots la..i pray for e time to past faster so i could get to see him.hahasx

its jux a day and yet i misses him dat much..

hahasx.

oh gosh.

i cannot live without him.

hmmsx.

okie wads going through my mind dat time was this

: i donne if this is called love ..am i too young to talk abt love?

bt i know i misses him dat much and wishes to be wit him as long as i could..and i tot abt it.i nid not know wad will our future be..i jux wanna be happy now and treasure the time wit him.i have decided to trust him fully.wad may e consequences be i donnoe bt i will bear all e consequences cox i choose it.i nid him..i misses him..when e tot of us breaking will just hurt me dat much..is this love?..i donnoe..to adults it may be childish or jux puppy love..bt i wan to be wit this guy as long as possible months years forever.hhmsx.dots.all i know is i wan treasure..

wad and where will tml bring us to i donnoe..and will we last till tml..i donnoe..bt it doesn't matter animore cox i know i wan be wit him happily until e dae we cannot be tgt.:)

todae meet up wit my dearie girlfriends!..hahas..

chatty us!.hahasx..noise pollution

bt dats us

i love dat!

we are friends for life!!

i will try my best to stay in contact no matter how busy may i be or you girls may be..

love you all!!

i bought small gif for my girlfriends and him

okie..

time for those pics to be..up!

left at 6.15

me and mummy!

on e wae!

i accidentally bump onto him

pool!

2007-03-30T12:06:00.000-07:00

hey!..

i got nthing bettter to do

so i blog since i still got few hrs to 5 plus

i suppose to wake up at 5 to go to genting

bt i don wan sleep so can sleep damn soundly in e couch!!

okie todae i went out wit a girl call shandy..

hmm..dots man!

den later of cox meet my honey

hahasx.

we slack e whole dae..which we usually don do

i donnoe y todae time reali past dat fast

like wad he had said

hahasx.

den later we meet wit my dearie girlfriends..cia and evan

haahsx..den we meet up for a while..

der is something funnie which she make a joke out of e dae

who else ?..is evan la!!

damn funnie..hahasx

tml i will be going oversae although is jux one dae!!

i miss you already la!damn you!!

hahasx..

i miss u like crazy madly..!!.

i nid to start saving money..

firstly becox i nid it for my textbook and stuff!

secondly me and honey intended to buy vans shoes tgt..

so have to start saving!!

alrite...

money money come to me!!

ahhaasx

i tot i will be back in e noon..

i was wrong

i will reach singapore in e nite at ten!

hmmx..

most likely can onli meet him mon

i edited e photo and moment we had!..i miss you honey!!:)

i hope me and my girlfriends won lost contact once dey enter ploy and i enter private schl..

haisx!!..

life without you girls..

how do i live?..

i wonder wad will my future be like?!

2007-03-28T00:55:00.000-07:00

here i am!!

stress are all over!!
exams ended!
its jux a 3 hrs exam
bt i took 2 hrs
cox i leave e exam hall earlier
no point sitting der and daydream

phew!!

i feel dat my drawing is totally the word SUX!!
hahasx
bt i reali did my best
i even went to e net and memories somethings

i did made used of somethings i remembered!
dats at least don throw my efforts to drain!!

hmm...todae meet him after my exams
went back to bb and go to jurong entertainment centre
to play pool...and relac
ahhh!..i miss you!!:)

hahasx...
meeting cia tml
most probably catching a movie!!
hope we can catch a movie which we like
and not out of no choice
hmmx..
den most likely slack again~~!!

den monday meeting my precious laogong (shijie)
hahasx...
after her tution wit little boy!
hahasx
cool
so much to catch wit her
miss you la girl!!

ladies!!
lets meet up more more!!!
incase we will seldom meet up when we get into a poly or wad
so lets get high!!
hahasx!

i m really afraid if i get into dat private schl
wad kind of ppl will i meet
sian!!

aniwae..
i jux get to know todae dat i will get my result for nafa
at e end of may!!
wad e hell!!
fuck!
den i have no choice bt to choose e private schl
no risk shuld be taken

okie shall end here i m busy!!

2007-03-27T00:04:00.000-07:00

hey hey

on sun
my family and i had dinner at westmall kopitiam.
i ate japanese meal.(rice and tempura.)
and order additional of octobus ball
not reali dat nice actually
bt den
still edible

hahasx.

later my bro wanted to play bowling at a newly open club near WM
we played for 4 games each one .one game
i had long nails and my nails were broken halfwae whn i was playing

it was kinda fun
bt i will get bored of it.
so once in a while will do
later i bought cinament stick to eat
it was damn ex la!
bt
once again..it was nice.
hahasx.

i wanted to play pool after dat..
bt no one wans to play..
so headed home

yst i went to study under blk 503.
wit him
hmm...time files reali fast..tml is my exam
weixiang kept reminding me of it whn we were talking on e phone yst
i was damn scared la!!
stupid asshole!
hahasx.
i m jux freaking nervous

i know i won do well..
cox hello!..i don even know e basic.
bt
i still wan gif it a try
this is e first time i going for a exam even i knw i will fail
usually if i know i will fail i don even bother to go
bt this time is diff
i don wanna gif up till e veri last

maybe i m jux purely being stubborn..
bt i reali wan gif it a try
i don wan regret in e future

hmm..
tml is e test
gd luck to me!

thanks for alicia mum greeting
and my dearly lovely girlfriends of mine!
you girls roxs my world!

hope even though we goes seperate ways.
we will still as besties as ever!
chat non stop
no secrets among us
go crazy tgt
gang bang
laugh at e lameiest thing in e world
don have to finsh my sentence and you girls knw wads next
don have to express out tat im sad.and yet you girls can see through me
i love all this feelings.!..
pls don let it end..
let it start

i know you girls are my reason to smile.
to lean on.
to cry infornt of
to express my real feelings
to go crazy wit
to jux be wit

BFB!!

love you girls!

yst we were talking abt club
he sae he don wan me to go
bt..
i reali wanna go wit my girlfriends..
i donnoe how to explain
bt i reali wan i reali wan
bt i understand your feeling
i reali won dance wit other guys
firstly even if i m single i won dance wit other guys.
secondly i m nw already attach e more i won..
ppl who know me well know i won

i don reali know wads your reason
bt i know you reali don like
i will try not to go
bt den once in while

few research i got frm e internet..i like e saying

"here the simple rule for "asian" fashion
try it on, and if it looks good on you, buy it!

Asian people tend to have bigger head than other races.
Average Asian person tend to be shorter than most races.
Average Asian person have shorter legs and longer torsos

is it true????

I personally feel dressing up should be more about "feel" & being instinctive, & just knowing what looks good on you...when I see a well dressed man, asian or not, I notice it because of how he carry his clothes..not because I feel his head is just the right size for that sweater, or he's just the right height for that suit..

whn will my hand recover?!.ouch!

I'M IN LOVE"

2007-03-23T08:44:00.000-07:00

hey hey..it been so long since i blog
was busy e past few days
so din get to update

wads up!!
hahasx!
went to clubbing wed...
was like damn boring can!

der izzent anione on e dance floor
onli evan's baby love and his friend
were at e dance floor
dey are such an asshole !!
dey told us dey plan to go to powerstation
hello
is cheekys powerstation??
no!..liar!!
hahasx.
ken scared e hell out of me when we were putting our things in e locker!
ass!!
we din get to dance dat much!!\
boring~!
cox firstly dey are der its kinda shy to dance actually
secondly e music is not up to our liking!

hiyo!!
stop my nagging!!
hahasx!

he saw my blog..
cox he saw adrian view his friendster and he ask him y he view or stuff
den adrian sae cox he saw my blog..
den he went to take a look

he explain himself when he get to see me yst
he sae he was sayin dat pic was taken wen we broke off dat dey
and dats y his sad
hmm..
actually i knew he will sae dat
hiya..
i sae le i don wan ask
i don wan hear anithing
even if i knw i anithing
i will pretend as nthing
maybe cox i m tired of guessing..
let time reali show wads on your mind
wadever is e result may be..i m prepared!
i won leave you..
maybe i m too into you
i donnoe
sometime wen you are beside me..
i donnoe when it will be e last day
hmm..

i know you love may alot..you used to deny
now you agree to it
yea..
i can see..
you remember every detail abt e relationship you had wit her
i don mind
cox i can do nting

i jux wanna be happy!!

can't i?!?

y is this world so fucking cruel to me!!
i m tired of striving so hard and gaining nthing!

i have no schl to go
all i can do is go into privates schl

yst had a bad quarreled wit my mother
my mother keep insisting in me applying to go into a engineering course
hey!!
i don like!
why must i sae yes to wad you want me to do...when i don like it!
you jux wan me to get a cert after all
is jux a cert dat you are concern abt
how abt my feelings
whats going through me nw!!
can you understand for god sake!

when i shouted at you :"can you care abt my feelings"
i almost cried
i hold back
i m hurt.
cox i tot dey will be e one who knows me best
guess i m wrong
dey don
:(
i know cert is impt !!
dats y i nv gave up one my studies
and study for o rite!

bt when something turn bad
you guys blame me!
as if you all nv see e hard work i put in!!
wads dat man!!!

i m e one who is sad and desperate nw
my future in my hand
yet i cannot decide my future
and you all r jux thinking for yourself
so dat ppl won sae wah your child no where to go bla bla
if dats wad matters u guys
im sorrie for this time..i won give in
and act as if i don care
now i have my thinking and my dreams
don try to hurt it
cox i will protect it!

i feel so down rite nw!
y am i not gd in anithing
y am i jux someone who is nt impt..
hiya

shh!!!..

okie..i shall end here..
dats all foks..
i m nt feeling well..
see ya!

i wanna die in your arms

2007-03-19T05:56:00.000-07:00

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MoSt WaNtEd EmO - posted 18/3/2007

coz somethin went wrong between me and her....

pont - posted 15/3/2007

why???? ###

haix..

.wads wrong btw me and him nw?

i rmb der nthing happen on e 18..

i donnoe

i donnoe wads on his mind seriously

i haf to slp nw even

i have alot of tots in mind

bt i have exams arund e corner..

hiya!

donnoe wad to do!!

so stress!!

tml going to bugis wit cia

going to national library to find out more research abt fashion

n maybe catch a movie

shall update abt tml tml...

if possible

if i m not tired

if im in e mood

nites!

i m tired

2007-03-19T04:58:00.000-07:00

wow!

its morning already!!

i came blogging cox i m tired of drawing

hahasx..

its lky i been drawing fer hours!

bt talk on phone for hours too!

hahasx.

okie i gonna post few drawing i done!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fl8t5nJp2AQ - damn funnie la!

i'm working hard!real hard!

2007-03-17T22:37:00.000-07:00

peekapo!

i will update clubbin photo e next time
i m so tired!!
cox yst nite.
i went to browse e internet
to find abt fashion design stuff
i start learning from how to draw bags
todae i wanna learn how to draw shoes and accessories.
thn followed by learning to sketch a person
and e clothes

hope der is enuff time before e exam start

god will you bless me?!

hmm..hope i can get in into nafa!.
i don ask more den dat!

quarreled wit my mother cox of studies stuff
she is making my decision confuse!
she sae all i culd tink is for myself
hello!
this is my future..
i cannot always think fer dem k!
it will be damn unfair to me
its time for me to think for myself once!!!

this is wad i wan!.stop me or don support me..
up to you
do all you want
it doesn't matter to me

cox THIS IS WAD I REALLY WANT!

on e 16th march 2007
i went out wit him
to take neo print.
play pool
watch ppl ice skating
relac(lepak)
eat...

this are those neo photo we took!

i look sux in it

hahasx!

on 17th march 2007

i went out wit alicia

we headed to vivo

once again lepak!

hahasx..cool man.

i gt myself a pull and bear stuff

its a blue tube.

i jux love pull and bear..and crazy abt it!.haha

i m kinda lazy to blog..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JhYqxJvX0Yk the normal version

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0xVDglXG9M the stupid version

haha!..their singing reali sux.!.hahasx!!!

yeah!!..gonna hit e dance floor next wed!!

2007-03-15T23:22:00.000-07:00

yo hoo!.

its been so long ever since e last post..
cox mani things had happen after dat last post
i m back tgt wit him again
perhaps i m too dependent on him
when he came back to me..i kept saying no
bt
i know i have melted and have alrdy sae YES in my heart

i donnoe wad will happen to me in e future..
i donnoe
bt if this is wad i want
i will bear all e consequences!

i don care abt those words i heard
i don care if its all a lie
i don care animore.

i have decided to be wit you

let time tell me e truth

okay enuff of all e love stuff

i will update wad i did few daes ago

i went to club wit my precious girlfriends on wed..
its cheekys monkey
me n cia dance till we sweat like shit man!!!

honey- i m onli wit my girlfriends!.and i m nt a girl who is unfaithful and dance wit other guy..(i swear dat wit my heart)

den dey came my house to stay overnite

was damn hungry as usual

den we play true and dare~!!!

hey girls!..we are dat crazy!!
haha..

haha...
den last nite i went to yew ting (evan).hse to stay overnite
and watch jackass 2!!

oh my F****** god!!

dey are damn~ hot la
haha!!

dey are so daring!..
wads on deir mind man!

i guess dey ain fear of death!!

haha!

went back early cox yew ting(evan) wanna meet her baby.love
so i went hme to sleep
&
sleep until now..
i have nthing better to do

sooo....

went online to blog and serve some website

later gonna meet him...

oh ya!.recieve letter from nafa alrdy
damn moody can!
hiax!!
there gonna be a three to four hour test on 28 march
der is pratical and theory test
i m sure i will fail
how do i sketch??
when i don even knw e basic?!?
oh gosh!!
pls god!..gif me a path to follow

if i cannot even get into nafa!!
where can i go?!?!?
18 marks!!!
like 30 marks!

i reali wan go nafa!
i m willing to work hard for this road
i know all disagree to me going to nafa
cox dey find dat i don even know how to draw
and don have art background
its reali hard for me to hang in der in dat course
(design merchanising and marketing)
hmm..i know i know..wad you guys are thinking
bt den i insist on this path!!..
cox dats wad i wan!!
i will bear e consequence

i have a dream..and i choose to take step by step to achieve my goal!

bt nw i don even gif a chance!

i tot i can start learning how to draw in nafa!!
bt den nw!!..its lky i have to know hw to draw before going to nafa!!

hmm

okie..i m not feeling well

I HOPE YOU WON"T TAKE BACK YOUR WORDS!

2007-03-09T04:48:00.000-08:00

hello!!!!HELLO!!!..i m back!!..

yst was my bird day!.
haha!..hmm..we girls sae dat this year we jux celebrate it normal..
den when we are 18 -havok!!..
hmm..
bt den i still appreciate to have girls like you all!!..
love you girls!!..
thanks for everthing!!
..muackz!!!!

y mux it happen at my birthdae!..
you are an asshole k!!
you spoil my birthdae!!..

wadever you sae does it reali mean??..
i don tink so k!.
you don prove wad you mean
and onli go back on your words
sae wanna celebrate one month!.("lets go take neo print dat dae and go out and eat..save some money for dat dae")
bt it turns out to be a jux a sentence and don even mean it
your reason is dat you tot dat day was 5th
i ask where you going? you sae home!..
i take e initaitive to ask you out..you sae okie
den later you sae you were lying in bed when i contact you
i feel dat you don seem to be looking forward to go out..so no point asking
a dead body out
so i ask if you wanna stay home and rest
you sae i guess so
so dats it..
you take back your words..!!
you sae you reali tink dat dat was 5 th
okie den..dat means e next dae you will think dat is 6th!
den why aint you doing anithing!!!..

was it jux an excuse?!?

i donnoe..
if you reali care if you reali lookin forward..
i don see ani reason for you to tink dat day was 5th
you would long ago prepare it..and look forward rite!
is dat e wae of showing dat you don bother?

maybe i m not worth for you..dats on your mind!?

you din plan for my birthdae too..
nvm.
i m writing everything here..and it brings me back to all your words
you sae to me.
it hurts!!..so much!!..
cox its jux all words..
no action..
nthing!

1)your friendster is filled wit your ex..(if you love dem soo much if you cannot let e past be the past...don come find me!)

2)your friendster have a pic which a girl and a guy are kissing..and e comments sae (yes..bt i still wanna kiss someone soo much)..since i m nt e one you wanted so much..den don tell me dat

3)you are e one who plan to everthing for e one month anni..since den..you should remmeber more den i do!..der is no reason for you to not to look forward and forgetting e dae..unless..(you can't be bother or i m not dat impt! )

4)your friendster shows one of e pic.showing you used to play 6 girls at e time and now you love MAY onli(you sae you din saw it..bt den you write your comment at feb!..which i am already wit you..since you will write back e comment..y won you see it!!..y you been lying to me!!.you know i hate it!!..i hate liars!!..you still lie!.i wan e truth!.)since you love MAY so much..go back to her!!..y sae you love me...and you sae you were onli sad for one dae when you broke up wit her...and you write as if you love her dat much...who knows our case is e same..you jux sae you love me..and actually its not!

5)your friendster is single onli when i told you dat nyi nyi status is single when his wit yew ting den you started to change it to in a relationship!!..
y der is no intiating from you?!?..y mux i always sae den you know!!..i m tired of saeing!!

6)you din put our photo in friendster which shows my face when we did take alot of pic and onli put e pic which could not see me...am i dat ugly for you..!!..okie i m ugly okie.!!..i m not up to you!!..you sae you were afraid of adrain seeing it..come on man!!..you are my bf!.his my ex!!..why are you afraid!?..cox you don love me enuff to protect this relationship and if adrain reali find you trouble you are not in e wrong at all k..cox you are my bF!..and his my ex!!..wad can he do?!?..he have no rights!!!...you are an ass!!..you know i love you more...bt den keep insisting dat i love him more!!!..wad e hell!!..y are you hurting me this much!!..i m tired!WHY AINT YOU PROTECTING THIS RELATIONSHIP!!!

7)dat dae at valentine dae you saw your friend you ask me to go up alone..
if you reali bother and concern abt me..you would ask nyi nyi to wait for me and accompany me up!!..and why are you guys always hiding me behing e curtainS!!.am i dat ugly!!..adrain did this..you did this too!!..if you tink i m too ugly to let your friend sees me..den don ask me to be your gf k!!!

8)at valentine dae i gave you dat small gif...you don bother to keep it..throw it around e floor..and when it rows infornt of me..it turns to be a spoil toy already!..dats how you treat wad i gave u??..although its a small and stupid gif!!..don you appreaciate abit..keep it?!?!?...yyyyy?!?!?..i don understand!!..wad ever you doing is hurting!!..

9)..i always been worrying if you would play my feeling...i living in hell!!..you don show ani security and sincerity in this relationship at all!!!..y you tell me you would hold me tight when you don mean it

10)you shuld know you used to be a player!!..its reali hard for ppl to believe you..its normal k!!..den don blame others who don trust you..cox you are e one who used to played...if you reali wanna change..you shuld not blame ppl who don trust you..you shuld be prepared for this when you have played ppl feeling..so you shuld blame yourself for playing and nt others..and if you reali wanna change..you would try all your means to gain ppl trust!!..did you?!?..all you know is to get angry when i sae dat i don trust you!!..bt did you ever sae i understand..i understand wad are you going through wad are you afraid of...and start doing things to gain my trust?!?!?

11)..you shuld change before finding me...if you reali wanna start afresh!
i don owe you..i don have to suffer for wad you did last time..its nt fair!!..

12)y did you have to lie to yew ting dat you are giving me a present when you don even have it!!..y did you lie!!..

13)y did you lie to me dat you are in sec 4 when you are not!!..i guess..you also din bother to sae all e truth dat you are in NA!!..and not express!!
y din you sae!!..i saw it myself!!

within a month so much had happen!!..

you keep saying e word u don love me..and claim dat you love me!!..okie tell me nw!!..wad did you do to show dat you love me?!?
i concern so much for you..all i get in return is a word i don love you!!
wad rites do you have to sae i don love you!!!
if i don i won go find you everyday..even i m tired..
i won go our house and pass you food..
i won go find for valentine dae present
i won try my best to be by you when you nid someone
i won try to bear everything dat you did to hurt me
i won cry for you
i won get hurt

and all your words you said to me hurt me dat much
you are e first to tell my friend this "if she wan break den break lor"
okie fine..since dis is wad you wan i grant you k !!..
and when i ask for break you sae fine and even hang up e phone!!..
since dats wad on your mind..den jux break!!.
you come msging me todae and telling me to not break
and even change my photo and status!!..
why did you do dat!!..
did you ask for my permission!?..
no!!
i m single now!!!
no longer attactch to you okie!!!
you sae you wanna return my gifs..
i sae no nid..
seriously i don nid it..cox wad can i do wit it
and somemore its a gif!!
i ask you to keep it
you sae you don wan to
so i ask you throw it..
and you sae you throw it..
okie fine!!
i was reali hurt by dat k!!..
you kept mon present she gave you until todae!!!
and nw you gonna throw my present!!
gd!!
congrats!!..you hurt me dat much!!
and you sae it was kidding and you are trying to see my reactions!!
wad e hell!!...
you treat me as a fool!!!
okie congrats too
i m now reali a fool!!
totally!!
you sae e present was a present without love
wad do you mean by dat sentence!!!
you sae you don wan it cox its a present without love
i take so long and used up all my money to buy this!!
and wad i get in return is a present without love!!!
without love!!!!!

can you don hurt me soo much!!
i cannot take it animore!!
stop it!!
i wanna stay strong!
i don wanna cry!!
bt you are hurting me soo much
i could no longer hold back my tears and act as if i don care!
i m reali hurt
cox wadever you sae is jux words

its over k!!..its all over!!!...
bye!.

i don wan to meet you cox i know i will forgive you
i don wan to be wit you again
cox i know it will repeat and we will have no future!!.
no point!!

i will stay strong on my decision..
i don wanna hurt myself again
cox i m hurt!
reali hurt!

i will be fine soon girls :)

i will upload those pic soon.

you shuld change den find me!

2007-03-09T01:01:00.000-08:00

We wouldn't last for the week
I guess they think that I'm a freak
They hated my blue streak
I cant control this
[Chorus:]Why does it feel like it's raining in my head?
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
I feel that it's time
For me to draw the line
(I know that I'll be fine)
Without your bitchin
'Cos' everyday I become
A little less known
Like I don't even know you
[Chorus:]Why does it feel like it's raining in my head?
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
Cos' I don't need you
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me

jingyi intro e song

2007-01-19T10:51:00.000-08:00

17 jan

once again.
im sick again!
wtf!
total freakness!!
i hate getting sick
especailly on someday important.!

had injection as e doctor sae it
was much more serious den my bro
my bro had it first and i was spread to.

hmm..i vomitted and had diarrhoea
e noodles i ate in e afternoon came out
exactly e same!!..ewww!!..
suck !!
e next day(18th jan) i did not attent for e courses

i had a part time job..
hmm its a full time yet a part-time.
full time its like everdae one day off
bt part time cox its not long lasting :P
i still have to go back to schls.yea

me and evangeline was so lucky to be able to
have this job
we are working in a saloon as a assistance cum receptionist

but i m still not ani well yet..
i m worried i may vomit when i eat
hmm..hope god bless me!:)

18 th jan
we are suppose to help out in e shop to make those goods.
bt den our boss told us dat e goods will only be coming tml
der it goes..my bad luck again!.
wadever!
den we ask alicia to take half day leave
we meet her at nee ann ploy
we went for their open house.
shit!.
i reali wanna go into hospitaility and tourism course~!!
bt e cut off point is 11!!!
wad e F***!!
i sure cannot score e marks..
not even getting 20 and below!.
sad!.
i shuld have...
i shuld have...
i shuld have...

work a little more harder!!

hmm..okie!.don cry over spilled milk.
wad is done is done..der is no turn back.

later going to work !.going to reach novena at 3.30.
dats late rite.
we jux have to pack those goods coming in e new saloon i guess

let nature takes it course.

i guess i decide where to go.
which course to choose when
i got back my result!

good luck to all!!:):)

2007-01-14T06:35:00.000-08:00

hmm..feel reali vexed right nw!!
wad am i to him?!?.
a loyal dog?
i donnoe wad his tinking!.
hw could u treat it as nthing happen and contiue
to pop out a conversation and talk as normal!!

wad is those sms for?!
for fun!!!
hmm..

i told me wad u said dat day was true..
was it.?.
okie i believe u..
bt y??!!
y?.wad i do wrong?.
i reali did nthing wrong..
u did wrong once!..i forgiven u
wad else can i do?..
how much can i do?..
nthing!!
all i await is ur understanding care and true love
bt wad i have in return is cold!.

hmm..nw u finally can reply me..
i donnoe!!..
seriously i m confused by u..
u said u was serious..and
say u were being honest all e while
can i believe u?

will i turn to be a fool if i do so??
i donnoe!
i donnoe!!
i confuse

bye

2007-01-01T04:52:00.000-08:00

poo!.
wow..nw den i get to knw its really been a long time since i blog..

okie i gonna upload e salad pic for cia to let her real jealous..haas.

yst went to around marina square wit my girlfriends..to countdown..e period of e whole fireworks is reali short..crowds all over..jing and nick wanted to go home first be was unable to.cox everiwhere is pack wit ppl..haha..poor them..have to be wit us slack till 6 am in e morning..real tired..when we all get hme..haha..its a new year 2007..

belinda.forget e past..what has past had already past..i will try hard..hope reali don see him still appearing in my dreams,tears and heart..

okie..photos of fireworks!!..it was beautiful!..

hmm beautiful!!

its BLONDE secret admire..

upload pic gt prob again..okie..this is e few pic i can load..
now i gonna go see my last episode of e korean series

hope it will be a gd year..
see ya gers todae afternoon!:)

2006-12-27T20:35:00.000-08:00

hmm..
.. got so much prob loading those pic i took in hongkong.. forget it. todae its been raining. i stayed at home. hmm..aniwae it seems to be a raining season this month.
todae is another boring dae. watch tv.(addicted) and nw using com..
in e end i din get to eat mac this morning!!! nw feel like eating pancake!!..wit lots of butter.. recieve those cookies and chocolates from my dearest girlfriends.. yummy!..it jux taste so nice..love chocolates and cookies.. and of cox love to drink! haha..bt hmm..seem i got to jot down wad am i allergic to.. hope is not chocolate.. seem much better nowadays..
"love is fear. love is pain. love is insanity. love is something no one can maintain.
agree?
hmm..love..it always hard to figure this word..
i like this..
"It's not that chocolates are a substitute for love. Love is a substitute for chocolate. Chocolate is, let's face it, far more reliable than a man
hmm..is now we know wads chocolate real meaning of it..haha
"love is like a pair of socks...there has to be two...and they have to match.
hmm..yea agree..dat is when we can sae dey are fated..and when will my e other part of my life be?

2006-12-13T13:11:00.000-08:00

haha finally i m back from hongkong..haha and i brought some pic back haha..

2006-12-13T12:47:00.000-08:00

compare e face..oh my god..she is my long lost sis i found in hongkong!!..haha

2006-11-19T20:54:00.000-08:00

haha.finally writing blog again.
N o's are all over!.
e day after my o i had weird feeling.

haha.wad to do.after o.
guess is work!.
prom is on e way!.
seems like nothing to get.

yst went to watch movie wit cia..
haha.we are no life kia.
after movie we really donnoe where to go.
we jux walk around orchard aimlessly

e funniest part is we went to paragon
and did stupid things.haha
den we went home..haha.
we took e 190 around 11.30
and i reach bukit panjang around 12.10
den i saw that 176 came last bus is 11.45
wad e F***.and i had not even any peny left!
i had no other choice bt to walk home wit
my stupid shoe causing pain.

haha.todae gonna look for job.
hopefully i found one!!
hahaa!!

sayonara.

2006-08-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

woo.

phey!.
i almost have forgotten my own user name.
i tink i been nt blogging since quite long.
Been down wit sickness this few days.
Hope i can recover real soon.i m tired of sickness.!!.
its uncomfortable.
no more!.
go go go away

got back my result (chinese o)
i am contented with my result.
But seem like when i say i got a b3 wit a smile dat put on.
They seem shock.perhaps they think one is happy only when dey get A1A2...
Nah for me i am contented cos dats my limit.

Just downloaded FIR new songs.
in love wit it.maybe its e guy who sang it so well..!.

dat day.
hmm.
went outta wit my jie mei men.to admire fireworks.
WOW.
is e word to discribe that whole moment.
camers can never capture that moment.
bt my eyes did.
can't deny dat e first time watching it was unforgetable.
memories do seem beautiful bt at times it hurts so much.
hw i wish i can use words to explain hw i feel.
It seems like its hard to express things at times.
went to that *durian*(funny eh).
me and cia ting was slighty late.
sort of regret of nt being able to see that fireworks even more beautifully.
me and shijie was squeeze within e crowd like hamburger.
ha
lucky we were forced by a lady to admire dat beautiful night
we saw it sprung into the air
one was like shooting stars.
the fireworks was design perfectly
okie enffu of those stuff.

oh my just get to knw dat indian girl in singapore idol is out.
Her voice is powerful.
It was such a waste.
I tink dat joakim shuld be out.
No offence
I knw his handsome.bt tis is a singing contest
he can get no where unless he is able to improve
trying hard is nt all.
i guess.
lifes like this
sad
To be frank i am nt bias towards anyone yet
perhaps
i have nt like any one so much yet in
SINGAPORE IDOL

got to get my medicine.

con con~.(ha)

dejected..

2006-08-07T02:41:00.000-07:00

.................................

on 5th August is my brother birthday!.
once again happy birthdae!.his 18 now and it
is hard to believe his 18.took some pictures
on dat dae.todae damn tired.Shall nt talk much.
when my mood comes back.den i shall blog more yea.

thats all..

Happy birthday!

dejected...

2006-08-04T22:16:00.000-07:00

peekapoo!

now is 10 in the nite.juz nw was busy
watching nine acolock show e degree c.
Anna finally knw her mistake.
smetymes i find love has no right or wrong
like social studies question.maybe Anna
really like guo pin dat much.bt afterall
she still did e right ting to let go.i agree to
his decision.if u ever find someone u
love yet in return does not love u.y struggle y torture yourself
juz let go both parties wuld be happy izzen it
its easier said den done bt is e determination
dat succed.weixiang and huixin really makes
me melt.especially weixiang u can see in his eyes
how much huixin mean to him.is it in reality
der izzen e existence of it?.

perhaps

bt i m still insist to only find a guy
who i can see me in him.if he doesn.
wads make me wit him?
enuff of those emo stuff
shall talk no more abt that

bt gt to sae weixiang is my dream guy.
bt does not nid to be rich lah
haha

todae din went schl.
very lazy.
traveling distance is far
hate it.so choose
nt to go.

tml is my bro birthdae!
tonite when e clock strike 12
(ohh dat sounds erie)
i will msg him
and pass him e present i bought tml
i bought him a shirt
and make him a card!!.
hope he likes it.

Belinda u must hang on!
don break down!
yea i can i can!!
i really trying hard!!.

smile!!

dejected...

2006-08-04T01:55:00.000-07:00

boo!!
at this hour tis write blog.
cox came back to thank
e person who have help me
make my blog! -jeremy!!-
thanks u la!.haha!.thanks
i appreciate!

dejected..

2006-08-03T22:52:00.000-07:00

boo!

today had dat horrible maths test.questions can be done bt der is alot still cannot be done.i left that whole question blank!!..why am i still reacting in tis manner.i muz be serious bt i seem to be tired and sometimes really feel
like giving up.i tink no one knows e feeling expect i knw it best.don talk
abt it anymore,it will worsen my mood.i will learn to be optimistic..learning hard.

i gonna be me and me..

e independent me

stand alone hard

todae is ting jian bro birthdae!.once again Happy birthday!!..stay as happy as ever!!..happiness is something all wish to achieve!.lets aim for our goal and go for it!!..happiness is my goal!

Dejected..

2006-08-02T22:48:00.000-07:00

life are boring without slacking music and delicious yummy food!
i don wan my life to be a boring one!.bt no choice we are juz a
kid where we gt no choice to surrender to our scary fate
(Examination)

tml der would be maths test.i knw i gonna be dead.my maths izzent dat gd.
bt still okie.hope i can see mirical.pray hard!.todae is a boring day.

nthing much to say i guess.shall rest!.

dejected...

2006-08-01T21:50:00.000-07:00

1/8/06

my blog is once up again!
can u believe it?.
this few days kinda stress man.feel so useless
and helpless.my marks ain't tat gd.hw am i going wit this kind
of marks to the exam hall.english chinese and all sub i am gd in
nthing.i feel so useless.some are gd in these and dat whn i can't
find anithing im gd in.i feeling emotional this few daes.maybe seeing
my result really spoils my mood.i m always bad in these and dat.whn
can i get outta of this kinda stress i can't take it anymore!!.to be frank
i nv felt so worried and uneasy for any examination.this is my first time
The previous years of examination i nvr took it seriously before.This
time o'level really gonna scare me to death!!.oh my god!.abt A i not gonna
think fer e time being.i won let anithing hurt me nw.i don wanna break
down once again

let nature takes it course.

i don see me in you.

i guess i m too tired for everything i need a break!.enjoy life to e fullest isn't it??.haz.

support Elvin Ng!!.oh my i also donnoe wad charm in him attracted me so much that i don wan to miss any episode of the degree c..his nt handsome bt his attractive.Moreover i like the character his in.A real nice guy!.who can do anithing fer e ger he like.so sweet..bt actually yixin and guo pin also quite loving couple!.sweet too..i remember e sceen that guo pin sae to yi xin "wo xi huan ni x3)..said it three times or even more.so touch.imagine a guy..whooo!.haha.aniwae this show is nice.

chat no more.
kinda tired.

dejected..